Oh, I am more than a little frustrated as a writer right now.
As I transcribe ‘Til Undeath Do Us Part onto digital format from its pink typewritten pages, I see the powerful language from the Dome Trilogy is just not there. The richness of my vocabulary is missing. I use weak and general verbs instead of strong verbs. I use passive voice too often instead of using it to add to the novel’s varied sentence structure.
Of course, I could simply be second-guessing my own writing because I have access to so many rules about writing for a reading public. I want to be the best writer I can be. The ideas are there; the creativity is there; the story is there. Maneuvering it from mind to manuscript is the challenge.
Grammar is Magic!
It’s time to return the magic of grammar to my writing. Do I trust my writer’s voice? In some ways I do. However, I see the signs of writing burnout in the story weaving. I see the signs of writing burnout on Twitter. I spend more time grinding down sentences, looking at them with a leery scowl and suspicious eye. I know something in my current writing voice is amiss, and I feel anxiety that I will miss one of the most basic grammar oopsies and send it off to publication with a cheery titter. I do not look forward to seeing massive errors in my published work, ones which I know I should have caught in a final polish.
Errors in a finished and disseminated manuscript are like driving at nighttime past a giant video billboard on a freeway. Temporarily blinded, I can do nothing more than feel frustrated and curse myself for putting myself out there when I should have known better.
So, today I will give myself an early holiday gift. I will visit the library and retrieve books which won’t influence my plot. I will check out a lovely assortment of grammar and sentence structure and writing practice books. I will consume them like a starving author, and I will enjoy every morsel in this feast of form and function for fiction.
I am a writer. Published or not, I am a writer. Completed novels pile higher every year. All need some TLC to be worthy of publication. Right now, the Cryptid Series has my attention. It’s a good story entering an inundated market, just tangential enough that I believe it may stand out. I believe in the story. I believe it deserves the best of me as a writer.
I believe in it so much that I am taking a break to brush up on the fundamentals of grammar and sentence structure. It’s a good day to be a writer, if only because I know tomorrow can be a better writing day.